Before my senior year started, I asked God to teach me about love. That's what I wanted to learn about this year... and I've always heard people say "don't ask for patience, because then God will test your patience..." then after that they always do that laugh thing. that isn't the point tho... I really didn't think about how God would teach me more about love. I just prayed that He would teach me and waited for Him to do so.
This has been a rough year. Everything is changing. It's weird. My friends have changed, my parents have changed out they treat me, my schedule and activities have changed, I have changed.. through all of this changing I've discovered a lot about love.
It used to be so easy to love my friends, but to be completely honest, it hasn't been as easy this year. Not that I don't love them but I'm talking about the kind of love that God offers to us. I know we're humans and can't achieve love like that, but isn't that what we're striving for as christians? When my friends change and I don't like the change, it's not loving them to get mad about it and think they're not who they were before. Love is much bigger than getting mad about friends changing. They're growing and maturing. That's not something to get upset about.. Especially when I'm doing the same thing.
I really think love and forgiveness go hand in hand. I don't know if I believe you can love someone if you're unwilling to forgive them. If you can't give up whatever grudge you're holding and make the choice to forgive them and move on, how is that love? Love is risky at times. It can feel like a major risk to forgive someone who has hurt you. after all, won't they just do it again? But what do we do to God? How much does is hurt God when I sin over and over again. When I deliberately do something that puts a wall between God and I, and then come crawling back to Him telling Him how much I love Him and how sorry I am, how much worse does that feel than how I feel when someone does something that hurts my feelings a little?
I have so much more to say about the things God has shown me about love. I just don't have time tonight. Things I've learned from my parents, my grandparents, my boyfriend, my squad, my teachers... God uses so many different things. It's weird that usually at the time I don't realize God is teaching me.
I still don't know how to end a blog. (or if anyone reads this)
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5 comments:
i suck at love...
sometimes i end my blogs like this:
"yep..."
Oh Valerie :-) You used the term "my squad" and I lol'd.
you are much too young to have learned all that stuff already....
Hi. My name is Amy. I don't know you, and I apologize for being so forward, but it's in my nature to reach out and say hello when I feel the inspiration to do so. I found your blog through Jaki's blog in her comments. Although you are new to blogging, it seems you are wise in your youth and a natural at journaling and reflective thinking. I really liked reading your entries. They kept my attention (and grammatically correct which makes for easier reading and more profound potential). You have some things worth quoting in here, especially in the comments on love.
I just wanted to say - keep blogging, you've got the knack for it. You can see me "dancing in the rain" at http://amylulandrum.blogspot.com
Ciao new friend.
Amy.
dear valerie
your true friends will love you "in process" = they will love you through your ups and downs and they will be there for you over and over again. whether you take their often shaded advice or not.
continue to "put God first" - and somehow the rest gets worked out.
when you find a friend who wants the best for you and one who encourages you to stretch for your dreams and one who allows you to find your own way - you will have found a treasure indeed!!
friends like this don't grow on trees - instead they are peppered through our lives sparingly.
i love you.
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